Hey everyone, yeah I’m still really sick. I think I have a really high temperature been sweating so bad haha I’ve had 3 showers today! The ocean called and said they were running out of water. I’ve been pretty miserable at home by myself, been so lonely. Thanks to everyone that talked to me or texted me today, you kept me in high spirits. Thanks Matt and Mick for your texts sorry I couldn’t text back, I’m out of credit but it’s the thought that counts. Thanks Skye, Connie, Jen and Jess without realising it you kept me company, love you guys! I went for a drive this afternoon, which was very silly of me because I was so ill. I was scared I’d forget the things I’ve learnt if I stop driving now.   I don’t know how I’ll ever manage to sleep tonight, I have 2 huge pain killers and they make you feel almost normal, I have slept almost the entire day away and had Pepsi. Last night I sat up really late, you know how you just feel to sick to sleep. So I sat up and watched Sense and Sensibility to about 2 am. Such a gorgeous movie! I love vision radio; there have been some great sermons on today. I’m so glad I got to listen to them. Nothing like a word from God to cheer you up. He’s my dearest friend never leaves me not even when I’m sick.  Love to all my gal pals, your amazing J

Well it’s Thursday night, Praise the Lord it’s a student free day tomorrow, yup that’s right NOOOO SCHOOL! Dude I was like totally bummed out. Haha I was waiting for Ron to come on because I have heaps to tell him! He could only talk for 5 minutes, I was like so disappointed. But that’s life aye Ron’s busy. I’m mad at myself for not starting my Art project earlier; I was like no Ron will be on any minute LOL.

 Well I’m going out to join in on the girls slumber party. Watching girlie movies haha and talking about romantic junk. Yeah haha the “only happen in movies type stuff”.

CHOW!

Well the youth service went wonderful there, the spirit of God was moving. I loved it, just shut my eyes and reached out to God in worship. School was pretty lame today, I think all students just reach a place where it’s kind of like “Dude we have to get out of this place”.  I question the teacher’s passion for their job, for many it’s just the money. A lot of them don’t realise how much they annoy student’s parents, unfair grading, and poor teaching I’m extremely sick of the school.  They’re taking our Friday afternoons off us. A lot of them are lacking in wisdom, because you can’t make someone learn. They need to want to learn, to have a teachable spirit. The seniors are only hurting themselves if they decide to go downtown and muck around and waste the time that’s given to them to work on assessment. There are some of us that do follow the rules and getting punished because some kids don’t care about they’re schooling. Anyway enough about stupid school haha I’m totally out of there soon, praise the Lord. I need to be doing something I love, something I have a burning passion for and man I just feel Gods flooded my heart with this fire and I want to be witnessing, I want to go to Bible College. But I do acknowledge Gods place for me right now is school. So I shouldn’t whine or complain although it’s extremely tough at times. Well I don’t feel like writing anymore.

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Oh yeah did I tell you all how much I loved Ron. ♥ Haha I love him SOOOOO MUCH! ♥ Better not get me started on the Ron subject. Lol I could type forever!  

 Love you all Kisses to my gals. God Bless

Just got back from Bundaberg it was a really enjoyable time with the family. We sang praises and worshipped God on the way over and back, spent time in prayer together and had a lot of extremely good laughs. We shopped and saw “Pirates of the Caribbean 2” that was pretty good; I didn’t think I’d like it but I really did enjoy it. Love my family, they’ve always encouraged me and supported me in all of my decisions. We’ve had our moments but I’m a moody teenager and they are loving parents who just want the best for me. They’re job is to care even when I don’t.  As I was sitting in the car going to Bundaberg I opened my wallet and there was a picture of Ron, opened my phone and there he was again on my screen. First thing I did when I got home was run to my computer to check if he had replied to me email, guess he’s just busy I don’t want to judge his intentions and think the worst. I have missed our closeness and I think the distance between us has a lot to do with me. I think I may have scared him off. Not think but know I have scared him off. I have to start getting it through my head he’s not like other men. I have met so many that declare their love to women and run off and leave at the drop of a hat. Part of me feels I got to put up this wall of protection and stop Ron from getting closure, because if he does happen to meet someone else I’ll be shattered. (Doctor Phil please help me) only joshin! Haha told ya Libbie I’m no good at this kind of stuff. Please don’t ask me for anymore love life advice. I really and truly don’t have a clue when it comes to the opposite sex.  Truth is it’s a trust issue and I need to trust God for my future and for my future man. I believe God stands before my failures and if this relationship is His will for my life than it’ll work and come together despite my shortcomings and failures. My wall of protection has worked, so much so that we never seem to talk anymore or in that case find things to talk about. I have two choices I could quit and runaway, or I can put my trust in God and let Him take control of this situation. Whatever happens in this situation I want you all to know Christ is my all and I will thrive in either circumstance.

Just going to keep on following God, Kristy

Yup this is love alright!

Well hey everyone!!! Today has been an odd day, been in tears for hours just sobbing from as soon as woke up (lol emotional women *rolls eyes haha*). I’ve been really down for the past week. Just in a low, having had the vomiting bug and girlie stuff all at once I’m sure that didn’t help things. But man I’m so much happier, had a really good talk with God on the bathroom floor in tears. I asked for the garments of praise for the spirit of heaviness. Heaviness is a constant thing we have to battle with as Christians but Praise God. >>Be strong and courageous do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go “Joshua 1:9-10”. He knows what I’m going through He’s there always. Sometimes I get upset because I don’t have many close Christian friends and it’s a battle to love the girls I sit with, I won’t lie. Their constant swearing and their talking about what they got up to on the weekend really gets to me. It burdens and weighs me down so much. They have so much potential in Christ and when you see the stuff they do or hear about the horrible parties they go to and who they hooked up with there.

I’m just filled with this overwhelming compassion and a passion that desires to see them saved, it’s defiantly God given. Just knowing God wants to give them so much more, that temporary highs won’t fill… He wants to make them whole.  I realised that if wanted encouragement in my Christian walk I was looking at it the wrong way. As in only seeing what other Christians could give me. But I myself need to be a massive encouragement in others lives, an inspiration. If I’ am that, than I’ll be encouraged by being an encourager. Hope you all got what I was trying to say. Life rushes ahead the time you spend on pointless things you never get back. I refuse to lay here and feel sorry for myself or moan about my problems. I have a life to live that my Heavenly father blessed me with. It’s time I get out there and live it…everyone has a life but are they living it to the fullest potential?

For me it wasn’t until I started to rely on Gods strength to get me through that I realised the magnificence of his Grace. That He is not just a God to help me overcome struggles today, but He’s a God to help overcome every struggle I face for the rest of my time here on this Earth! Mann that’s blows me away J and I’m so thankful that I don’t have to go it alone but my best friend is hear right beside me every hour, every minute every second of the day, 7 days a week and 365 days of the year, and He’s never going to leave.

No, in all things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I’ am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:37-39

Although I can’t live protected from the evils of this world I can live with the Promise God Gives me.

Love you all, be encouraged. Hold that head up high you are more than Conquerors in Christ. God is with you. If God is for us who can be against us. Xox

Love in Christ Kristy

P.S. Ron I really respect you and look up to you. I love and admire the way you are serving the Lord by working in the church and amongst the youth there. Hang in there, your in my prayers.

Hey everyone its winter now and it’s so unbelievably cold outside. I have so much to work on but I thought I need to update you on what’s been happening in my life. Well to be honest I guess I needed to write this to help myself. I find it so much easier putting my feelings on paper than actually talking to someone about them. I haven’t heard from Ron yet, he did write me an email but it turned up blank so I’m not sure if he was intending to write something or not. He called on Friday but I was working so I still haven’t really heard from him. Today I’ve been torturing myself, been watching his video and reading his letters. I do feel stronger though, yet it’s almost like I’ve put on this fake I don’t care its okay type thing. Haha to be honest deep down I’m seriously missing him… like crazy actually. I have no idea what Gods got planned now. Its amazing how you can be so sure something is right and so at ease and at peace with things and then all of a sudden have no idea what’s going on or what’s going to happen. So many questions I have asked myself, did I rush into things, was I supposed to wait, should I have guarded my heart better, was there someone I was supposed to meet here and fall for, and was I to busy to notice them? I can’t ask myself anymore questions I just thank God He’s kept me occupied in ministry and in my school work and working in the Salon.

Yet I still love him; even though I haven’t spoken to him in such a long time….I still love him. I pray he enjoys ministry and whatever happens he’ll continue to walk in the truth, that he’ll continue to put God first, that God blesses his ministry, that he’ll become a mighty man of God as he grows in love and understanding of Him. I pray that God will fill his heart with dreams and that faith gives him the courage to dare to do great things.

I just have to keep trusting God myself and not lean on my own understanding. I want to be used by God and I needn’t be concerned if something happens and it doesn’t work. We’ll remain great friends I know that for sure. My God is big enough to send me a man I can love just as much. Until then I’m just going to keep pressing on and let nothing hold me back.

 God Bless you all, kisses and hugs from Kristy.

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 It’s been a nice weekend, Nanna and Poppy and Aunty Sue, Genevieve and Patrick came to watch Emily’s last night performing “Min Min” the school musical. She did such a fantastic job, she’s a total natural. Em better take me shopping when she’s rich and famous. Dads at church, I didn’t go today because I’m just so tired. It was a late night last night. I didn’t sleep at all because I was worried. Haven’t spoken to Ron in 5 days! Have no idea where he is, I wouldn’t be so worried but mum woke up early and managed to catch an American news show. Apparently there have been some bad storms over there and yeah….. I’m worried. Haha before Nanna and Poppy left  Nanna was like “whose this fellow coming down in September, your just friends right, keep it as friends. Have a good look around Kristy don’t be blinded there’s lots of men ect. I seriously thought about it too, not hearing from someone, no call, no email, you begin to wonder if you are really important to them?. Anyway there’s more to life then fellas am’ I right ladies. Of course I’ am, like tonight YAY Youth Service, really looking forward to it. I miss the family haha it was good having them down here, Poppy is hilarious; he always tells these jokes that are so hard to understand yet there funny. Love em ALL!  Nanna had a talk to me about cars haha she’s freaked man totally and literally freaking out. She was like you’ll be 18 next year. But Nanna that’s next year, you have no need to worry I promise you. I’m not going to do anything crazy like run to the city and become a drug addict or elope ect. Haha I want to go to Bible College and be used by the Lord wherever He may send me. *screams* how exciting. Which reminds me Ben, Jacob, Anna, Jenny, Connie, Nathan, Emily and I decided for our first Scripture Union outreach in the school. We’re going to have a massive ice-cream Sunday day. Only it’s on a Wednesday so it’s going to be “Ice-cream Wednesday”. Our home churches will support us with funds and we are giving the students free ice-cream, topping, lollies and all things nice for FREE. Just to bless them and get to know them, no strings attached.  So be excited Gods moving in that school, we are going to see God move in a massive way. We are asking in accordance to His will, it’s not His will that any should perish, Praise God. So thank you for everyone whose been keeping us in their prayers. They are not in vain, God hears them. *Kiss Kiss* God Bless you all.